Progress report for the weekend

Yesterday I found myself alone in my apartment. My parents went abroad so I didn’t get back to spend the weekend with them as I usually do. Although my roommate Shira said she would stay – she didn’t at the end since her boyfriend’s dog was dying or some shit.

I thought about how strange it is that all my good friends have boy/girl friends and I’m the only one single. It doesn’t disturb that much except for the fact that I have no one to go sarging with! Even my cousin who was the greatest wingman I ever had, has a girlfriend (and I don’t like her, she’s a bitch. but thats another story..).  I have some friends back in Tel Aviv which are single and can serve as good wingmen, but this weekend I made a mistake by thinking that if I’d stay in Jerusalem and go sarging by myself I’ll have more success. Boy, I was wrong.

As the evening progressed , I found myself contemplating whether I should indeed go out alone. It was kinda weird and depressing – having a friend or two by your side to cheer you up is part of the fun, I thought. Eventually , I had a nice Facebook chat with a -female friend of mine who convinced me to finally go out. So I dressed up and went to my favorite bar , a bar that witnessed me succeed before. As I’m walking , I stopped at some traffic lights with 3 chicks next to me. I had the perfect moment to open the set, but I chickened out , thought too much about what I should say, and the moment was gone. I continued walking to the bar and as I entered , I saw that the entire bar was filled – mostly with males or with females gathered by males. I felt a little strange and mostly pathetic staying there alone – as if everyone staring at me thinking “who is this looser…”. So I left after exactly 10 seconds, and had a small tour around the town center, skipped some club that had a long line in front of them – most of the people who waited there were 8 years younger than me anyway, that’s what I thought , also it was just a stupid excuse. The truth was that  I wasn’t really in the mood…

Eventually, on my way back home I ran into a group of young american tourists who looked for directions. I ‘opened’ the (mixed) set, tried my version of the jealous girlfriend on them and it went pretty cool but I didn’t know how to continue from there – they were a large group and  I walked to the opposite direction so I thought it would look stupid and needy if I walked them to their destination.. So we parted by saying goodbye, and I returned home thinking about what a looser I was by not continuing and escalating the situation with them.

So from this evening I’m taking the following lessons:

• Be more decisive – don’t be afraid to look awkward – you have nothing to loose , especially if you are not familiar with the people involved
• Don’t underestimate yourself in the conversation – there was a part in the conversation where I joked that Jerusalem is the most boring city in the world – just a very few clubs and bars. so one of them responded – “so where do you hang out?” and I said “By sitting at home, crying”. Of course it was a joke, but it was a joke that portrayed me as a looser and of course didn’t contribute to making me look alpha.

That’s it for now, peace! 🙂

Hello world!

Hi Everyone,

I’m Koko Loco. This blog started on a lonely friday night, after returning from a night out by my self trying to pick up girls – without any success.

Actually, It started much earlier. For the past few weeks I’ve been reading Neil Strauss’ book “Rules of the game” and apart from this book being really interesting – it changed something in me. I could really see my self in the old version of Neil. I mean, I’m 27, single for over 2 years, had a bad and too long relationship with a girl that treated me really badly – exactly as Neil portrayed himself before he became what he is today.

Now, I’m not looking for flings and one night stands. I want to improve my self esteem , my ability to talk to other people without loosing eye contact. I want to be able to approach to women without thinking about the consequences. Only then – as I see it I could have a good and satisfying relationship. The process which I’m going through will hopefully make me more confident , help me find a good partner for life , and not making a compromise on something that is not perfect for me , because “that’s what I was able to catch”.

I believe that the inability to approach women in general is a sign for something much deeper than just shyness. Its a sign for a deep lack of self confidence. A man is truly confident of himself only if he’s able to ‘not give a shit’ to a point where he can approach a group of strangers and initiate a conversation.

So , this is it. from now on i’m going to take any chance I’ve got to approach women, I’m going to conquer my fear and hopefully become much more confident and have a richer life as I should have long ago.

In this blog I’m going to describe my progress as time goes by. Every time i’ll try something with a girl – I’m going to write it down including all the lessons learned from the process – in the hope of becoming better and better as time goes by.

Wish me luck!